The acceptance of my ethnic
heritage is a personal triumph that is paradoxically linked to the racial
marginalization MEChA counteracts on a regular basis. Growing up, I deliberately
chose not to identify as Latino, fearing negative associations and wanting the
social ease I linked with being “white”. Having a fair complexion, in the
context of majoritarian skin-based racial constructions, gave me the freedom to
project my preferred racial identity. The customs of my people were archaic
remnants of a culture rendered inadequate by those around me. When people assumed
I was white, I never corrected them.
Coming to Yale radically altered my stagnant perceptions
of race and ethnicity. I came to understand the multiple ways in which people
expressed their Latina/o identity beyond my internalized white-brown-black
paradigm. My classes taught me the dynamics of skin-based privilege and the Latinas/os
I met gave me the courage to define my own identity and not allow inaccurate
and pervasive racial categories to dictate my actions.
Another aspect of coming to New Haven that propelled me
to dismantle my previous conceptions of Latinidad came from the scarcity of
students and professors who identified as Hispanic, and on a larger scale, the
vast inequalities prevalent in the local community. Being at Yale provided me
with ample opportunity to engage in acts that worked to dispel racial
adversity. I began to see my Latina/o identity as not only something to be
proud of, but also as a constant reminder of why the fight against oppression
needs to continue.
I have come to see academia as my place in ameliorating
the racial inequalities that exist in society. By becoming a professor, I hope
to utilize my formative experiences with race and ethnicity in ways that give
agency to communities that continue to receive harsh regulation. The
opportunity to study and conduct research on subjects like the social phenomena
that engendered my sense of Latinidad would be incredible. As daunting as the
task may be, I aspire to add my voice to the collective knowledge of esteemed
trailblazers and look for new ways to interpret racial identity.
-Christofer Rodelo
-Christofer Rodelo